For months leading up to the wedding, Ryan and I were being super cautious about everything we ate. We had a strict workout schedule, and we really worked to look our best. I said no to afternoon chocolate and no to the extra beer after work. Two months later, I can already see how we have fallen off the wagon.

First let me preface this by saying I haven’t gained a pound. I’ve actually been the same exact weight for about six months now. I’m ok at this weight (I would appreciate if I was five pounds less–but more on this later). It’s not about the weight. It’s about our eating habits and exercise commitments. And yes I am saying “our” because my husband and I are both guilty. I feel gross. I don’t feel toned. And, I know I’m not treating my body the best way that I can.

I can’t tell you how many peanut butter sandwiches I eat in a week. If I’m hungry when I get home from work, I grab a piece of bread and load it up with pb. I don’t think much of it and I eat it in two minutes, but I know that extra 200-300 calories isn’t doing me any favors. I’d be better off grabbing an apple and dipping in some peanut butter–or peeling an orange. Ryan and I have also come up with a great excuse too many times a week to have a few beers or wine. Trust me, I know if I stopped drinking for a month those extra five pounds would fall right off–but that just isn’t going to happen. I like my wine too much. I do know I need to set a limit, though.

As for the exercise, I’m still doing spinning 1-2 times a week. And I still go to hot yoga about every other week. That’s it. Pretty pathetic. I find every excuse in the world to not workout. Two months ago I was using a dry erase board to make sure I did a workout at least four times a week. And it had to be a mixture of strength and cardio. Ryan did this too and we both supported each other to make sure we got our weekly workouts in.

I did all of this leading up until the wedding, so why did I stop and when did I become lazy again?

I’m a goal setter. I need a reason to do most things that require work. Right or wrong, it’s just how I function. Before my reason was the wedding. Pretty big deal and good reason to get in great shape. This time around, my reason/goal is going to be simple. I want to feel good again. I want to be proud of the work I’ve done and happy with how my body has responded.

Here are my weekly goals:

• Cardio twice a week. Strength/yoga twice a week.
• Two pieces of bread per day is my limit. There are days I eat two pieces for breakfast, and sandwich for lunch, and a piece of bread with dinner. Holy carbs!
• More fruits and veggies as snacks instead of sweets.
• Go on a walk before work twice a week with Rogue.
• Only have one glass of wine instead of two a few nights a week.

These aren’t hard goals to reach, they just take effort. We all have bad days, weeks, even months. I don’t see this as depriving myself at all. I see it as getting back to what I was doing before. So, cheers to becoming a healthier version of myself…again.