I feel like there’s always a lot of change going on in my life. I feel like there is change going on in everyone’s life around me too. Change that people want…and maybe change they don’t want too. Babies, marriages, divorces, moves, new jobs, new challenges, new excitements–change is all around us. And one thing I’ve learned is that change isn’t always comfortable. It’s not supposed to be.
I went to a new gym this morning called System of Strength. I went to the flex and flow class thinking it would be a breeze becuase I do hot yoga on a regular basis. Guess what, it was HARD. My arms are still shaking. While I was holding weights over my head while doing lunges, the instructor asked us if it hurt…it did. Her next statement is what stuck with me, “if it doesn’t hurt, then you aren’t changing.”
This goes beyond exercise. Way beyond. While I love thinking that way when I’m working out, I know I can apply this to my everyday life and all the things I want to change.
This one is really hard. I’m hard headed, stubborn, and have a hard time admitting when I’m at fault. I know I need to get over myself sometimes and change my attitude toward things. Everyday I’m trying to react differently and in a more positive way to situations. This is challenging and uncomfortable.
I’m always worrying about something. What people think of me, my family getting into a horrible accident, my house burning down, getting fired…my mind never quits. It’s gotten to the point where I’m making myself sick and causing more issues. I’m learning to just chill out and realize that I can’t have control over everything.
This sounds deeper than it really is. In the whole scheme of things, my situation is pretty great. I don’t have much to complain about. But I know I can do more in terms of my career. I know I don’t want to be at a 9-5 my whole life and I know I don’t want to work for other people forever. Ryan and I are taking a first step–we have started our own website company. And I mean JUST started. Do I think I’ll be a millionaire in a year? No way. This could totally blow up in our faces. But I do know that if we don’t try to do this now, I’ll never give it a try. And hell yes this is uncomfortable. And scary. But so much fun all at the same time.
So what do you want to change? It doesn’t have to be earth shattering or life changing, it can be anything. Just realize that whatever it is you decide, it’s going to be uncomfortable. It’s going to be hard. But it’s going to be worth it.>